realised @.@

i used 2 owez tel her n keep saying hw i much i luv her..
n owez say sweet things 2 her..
so dat she wil noe hw i feel......
bt after wad had happen..
i realise dat..
i shud reli giv her time...
mayb she was rite..
its tym i shud putting her down.....
mayb it wasnt our fate 2 b 2gether....
sumhow..
i realised dat its useless 2 keep tel her hw much i luv her n bla bla bla...
its da matter of tym..
i believe dat she wil understand n realise wad i had done 4 her n hw much luv i had given 2 her someday...
mayb at da future...
when da tym she realise..
mayb it was too late 4 me d...
bt i think i shud b vry glad n happy when dat day had come.......

wad da heck!!?? =.=

its juz lyk everyday..
i was hoping dat 2day wil b a better day 4 me..
n aso hoping dat she wil recover real soon..
it was ok dis morning..
bt at da evening..
she sms me..
n told me dat i shudnt w8 4 her d..
n asked me 2 find another gal...
gosh!!!
i tot we had made a promise...
n she juz told me all dis!??
i was soooooo dissapointed n rely pissed off!!...aiks..
i was lyk finally climb up a 10 storey building..
n suddenly juz fell down 2 da ground again..
i had trusted her so much...
i even considering dat m i making da rite decision??
i juz dunno..
i was so confuse...
did she rely care about me??
haiz...
rely feel lyk crying...T.T
bt after i think 4 sum times..
i think i shudnt blame her on everything..
she nids tym 2 think...
n...so do i >.<
bt juz dat dis tym...
i wont fight da fate..
i wil juz lead on wiv her decision...
hope she wont regret 4 wad she wil choose..........
i juz can say dat i wil stil luv her..yet a lil bit dissapointing...>.<

>.<

2day i went 2 da hospital 2 visit her again..
dat tym no ppl accompany her aso lar..
so after i finished my activity at skul..
i faz faz rush there 2 accompany her lo..
hope din disturb her la..
haha
unfortunately..
i 4gt 2 hav my lunch b4 go there..
so i had 2 starve til about 3pm oni eat..hehe
bt its worth it lar...i think..@.@
when i arrive at her room..
she was sleeping..
so i juz sit there quietly..
hope can help her in anything lo..
dunno wad 2 do...
nvr take care of ppl liddat b4...>.<
nt long after dat..
she woke up...
n i touched her forehead..
it seems lyk she stil gt a slight fever lo...
n her soarthraot stil havnt recover yet..=.=
xim tia T.T aiks..
later she sleep again d..
i can c dat she vry tired lar..
den ltr on her mum arrive d..
luckily her mum buy smthing 4 me 2 eat..
tq auntie!!^^
finally free from starving..
actualy i can hear my stomach making sounds dat tym..aiks..
aiya..
stil hope she wil recover soon lar..
wil pray 4 her everyday^^

worry.!! T.T

2day i was planning 2 go out wiv her, her bro n mum 2 buy smthing at qb...
i was told dat she had a fever..
i tot it was juz a normal fever..
so i told her 2 rest more n drink more water..
so dat she would recover ltr...
when i saw her at qb..
i can tel dat she was vry tired n she keep complaining bout her headache...
bt there is ntg dat i can do..
ltr at nite...
when i tot dat she would b feeling better...
she told me dat her fever had gone worse..
omg..
i was shocked..
i dunno wad 2 do..
haiz..rely upset oni..
cnt help her 2 feeling better...aiks..
4 nw..
i juz hoping dat she wil recover vry vry soon...>.<

love...

its rely a hard tym 4 me dis few days...
i was trying 2 make her luv me more n tries 2 spend more tym wiv her so dat we could understand each other better..
bt it seems lyk its harder den i tot...
of coz i wont giv up...
i would do anything dat i could 2 let her realize wad i 1 n wad i feel....
i can understand dat its hard 4 her 2 rely understand my feelings n wad i rely 1...
its nt juz 2 b 2gether wiv her..
bt all i 1 is her love....
rely hope dat she would realise it 1 day...
(mayb she had alredy realize it..juz dat im too slow 2 feel it..aiks >.<)
i've prayed every nite...
hope dat we would nt apart from each other anymore..
i would appreciate dis golden opportunity 2 prove dat we were rely meant 2 b 2gether..
i wil rely luv her wiv fully my heart..
n i dun care wad others said...
bcoz i thinks dat she deserve it...=)
I LOVE HER x) muackss

my true feeling.....

After considering 4 sum tym...
i finally made my choice...
i've found dat i stil luv her so much dat i could not even 4gt about her..
its impossible 2 do dat..
instead i've even luv her more n more everyday...>.<
she is my everything...especialy dat she owez brings me happiness..ehe
i'll w8 her til she would rely realize hw much she meant 2 me n hw much i luv her...
hope dat she will rely understand dat...
its rely hard 2 express my feelings thru words bt oni tym will tel...
although we had made a promise...
bt i stil hope dat i wil b able 2 keep her heart juz lyk da way i 1 2 giv her my whole heart...
my life would b vry miserable without her....
if there's a chance...
i would tel her i luv her every single second as da clock ticks...